When I first got clean I thought my life was over in some ways. I didn’t see how I was going to be able to have fun without drugs or alcohol. I felt like I was missing out. That couldn’t have been further from the truth. It was true, my life as I knew it was over. My perception of what my life was before I got clean was so distorted that it took me a while to realize that the fun had ended a long time ago. Although the Xanax withdrawal was rough, I got through it and am coming out the other side.
Getting clean was a whole new opportunity for me to discover what having fun and living life meant to me. In the beginning, going out with a bunch of recovering addicts was extremely uncomfortable for me, but it was the first time I had felt a part of and genuinely connected with other human beings in a very long time. Those people in recovery forced me to get out of my shell and experience life in a new light. Often, having fun came in the simplest forms of social interaction. After meetings I would always make a point to go out and eat,with people in the fellowship. This is where many of my closest relationships have formed and I found a recovery family. Putting myself out there was really hard, and its very easy to feel left out. The hardest part was realizing that if I wanted to feel apart of, it was going to take effort on my part to include myself in other peoples plans.
There are a lot of activities that I loved to do my whole life that I lost in my addiction. My counselor asked me while I was in treatment, Who are you? What do you like to do for fun? I didnt have an answer. It had been so long since I had done any self searching for what I liked to do. That question she asked me stuck in my head for weeks. I started remembering the things I loved to do. Mountain biking, baseball, outdoor adventures. I rediscovered all those activities and they have become an absolute blessing in my recovery, and have given me some of the best and most fun experiences in my life.
At 6 months clean, I got to go to my first convention. If you want to have fun in recovery and see others having fun in recovery, go to a convention! It was one of the funnest and most memorable experiences in my time being clean.
Having fun in recovery is necessary. Life isnt over when you get clean, its just beginning. I have learned that having fun doesnt just fall in your lap though, you have to seek it. Find out what fun means to you, find other people to connect and have fun with, and go experience life in recovery.